Alhamdulillah !! u finally invite urself to go to Mosque for first time in Nottingham, or popularly called IC (islamic centre)... Congrats, well ~,, hehe.. Sincerely, i'm totally happy with myself rite now... u're doin awesome job anati...
Truthfully, it has been in my mind recently that i eagerly want to go to mosque by myself which means I GO THERE, NOT BCOZ OF ANY RELIGIOUS EVENT OR SOMETHIN ELSE`~.. i still remember, when i'm still in mensturation, i always thinking to go praying in that mosque coz i oftenly la jugak hear the imam do the adzan n it was so nice n very good for my ear actually~ yer la, hearing that is zillions better when it comes to comparison btw kpop(BIGBANG) N ADZAN...i do admit it..
Ala... anati~ when u're not in mens pun u often ggak hear adzan but still, always finding ways to not go there.. well, that's me before..
Well, i believe that God had called me to start do reflections n transformations of myself to a greater good which to jannah.. He really want to see me, perhaps.. n i finally call Him back by visiting His House... ALHAMDULILLAH, ALLAHUAKBAR N LAILAHAILLALLAH~!!!
Thanx so much God for giving me 'that calling'.. i'm deeply appreciate that..Later on, i'll try myself to let my mind, body n soul to pray in mosque.. seriously, PRAYING IN MOSQUE IS MUCH MORE BETTER + KHUSYUK than any place.. that's my opinion~!!!
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I still remember when i start entering the ladies' part in the mosque, mostly international ( arabians) girls in there but still, not to forget that there's also a few of malaysian girls, specifically senior... but that's out o my business~!!!
So, with willingly heart, i walk into the ladies' prayer part n seriously, it was very calm n i kinda feel peace there.. Alhamdulillah again Anati ~ then, as that time the imam already perform the adzan, so most of the girls in there straight away do the 'solat sunat before solat isyak' n i dont know what on earth with my mind n body!~~ i also straight away conform to them - straight away move in front , put my bag n wear the 'baju sembahyang' n 'SAHAJA AKU SOLAT SUNAT SEBELUM ISYAK KERANA ALLAH TAALA'.. I perform solat sunat ba'diah kot... that solat~ it has been a long time that i stop perform that solat... see, the power of Allah~!!
Then, I sit n waiting for the imam command to solat ( while do the dzikir), that dzikir also, usually, i just do SUBNALLAH 5x, ALHAMDULILLAH 5x, ALLAH AKBAR 5x, n sometimes LAILAHAILLALLAH 5x .. But, at that time,i perform all that dzikir 33x each of it... Subhanallah~!! HOW STRONG THE SPIRIT OCCURED IN THE MOSQUE..n guess what, i dont know what's wrong with me but i suddenly use my bracelet as a tasbih.. awwweee... it's so worthy,2+1 kot~!!!
After that, the imam do the iqamah n we all pray.. when it comes to 1st n 2nd rakaat, i was really mesmerised by the imam's voice of reciting surahs (which i dont know~)... seriously, that was very heart tearing as i also was about to cry but still can handle it.. OMG ~!!! i dont know how should i tell u that i am really.... reallly... wanna thank u for all the peace that u gave me... no word can descride that than ALLAHU AKBAR~!!! oh ALLAH, U ARE THE ALMIGHTY N GREAT~!!!
But, when it comes to 3rd n 4th rakaat, since only Al-fatihah is recited (in silent), i recited it also la... but (i dont know, what's strong with that imam, he recited it so fast that it's so hard for to follow him, so, terpaksa la recited it in fast way, at that time, i just hope that God still accept my prayer at that time... finally, i finish my solat isyak quite late than others bcoz of that reason...
after pray, as usual, do some dzikir n the imam starts to give tazkirah...
so, what i learned during his tazkirah are 1st, it's about envy... i suddenlyknow that envy is the 1st sin that ever happenend in this dunia...this envy has to do with satan, the moment when they envyof Adam s.a as Allah wants them to sujud to Adam s.a but they dont want as they think that they wore powerful than Adam s.a, who's made up of clay while they're made of fire... so, generally envy is kind of like 'U DONT THAT THING N U ALSO DONT WANT THEM (OTHER PEOPLE) TO HAVE THAT~!' Basically, it is like that. the 2nd is about doa after waking up, the meaning of that doa is so beautiful n shocked me at 1st (straight away smiling for no reasons after hearing the meaning of that doa recited by the imam)... that doa is kind of like God has gave us life again after He made us dead (i mean, sleeping~!)... so, yup~!! that's the 2 things that can properly hear, other~!! i hear but it's so hard u know to understand arabian when they talking english but yea, at least i know some benefits la from that tazkirah. it's better than nothing rite, Anati~!!
to me, yesterday!!! i had such n awesome moment where i finally find peace where i hardly get that.. thanx God for giving me this... Later on, n 2morrows~ i hope i still continue to the paradigm in my life to the greater good.. though, i believe it's gonna be so hard..
To me + other Muslims,
OH GOD, i do really hope that u always show + invite us to the right path... if we fail to see that path, plez help us n lead us... we r nothin without u.. everythin come from.. so, plez gives us hidayah to do good things in our lives n not to forget, plez gives hidayah also for us to always go to mosque (Ur house) n perform solat jemaah together... to those, who r still not muslims, plez give them hidayah too n let them see the beauty of ISLAM, Allah!!!.. Amin~
